Who am I ?

I've been noodling around with the ongoing question of what I want to be when I grow up. It's a question I think persists for us all. There are those rare few who know exactly what they want to do, who they are meant to be, from the beginning. And then there are some who search and try on different skins until they find the one that fits and they settle in and say "ahhhh now I am happy and contented". But for most of us, we constantly reevaluate and continue to search for our path, our purpose, our best self and life.

I'm in one of those moods. I'm asking myself those existential questions - what am I meant to do? Who am I meant to be? How can I add value? Earlier I wished, I could win a lottery or a prize money and didn't have to work my entire life and just spend aimlessly and unboundly. Then life would be so fantastic, this is how I enter the fantasy world and think of all the good things which can happen to me. I would shop around, travel and try all great things with that money.

I've been surprised with some of my answers this time around. I'm having the bizarre and a feeling that if I won the lottery I'd keep working, may be to gain some relevant experience. I could indulge my passion for learning without having to worry about the outcome. But if I won the lottery I could hire a driver to take me to work, and a morning personal assistant to get me up and help me out the door. Sounds great hmmm!!!

Do you grapple with these or similar questions? Are you satisfied with the answers? Have you figured out what you want to be when you grow up or, better yet, do you feel like a grown up yet? If till date you haven't started thinking about it, do it from now and take a plunge......

Written by: Neha Gupta